Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Exposing Myself

A little while back, I blogged about some cool just-in-time learning initiatives going on in my district. Headed by ("the other") Lee and Kim, they've taken our little TV station in our big school district and created a quite popular 30 min. tech tv show called The PalmBreeze Cafe.

YouTube Becomes MeTube
My post here, acknowledges the national recognition they (finally) received and this post reflects on when I appeared on the show to do a segment on a Web 2.0 application called Airset. Well, the segment has aired and it has been posted on the PalmBreezeCAFE YouTube Channel. I have it here for you to see. (Both are at the end of this post, just hang on a second.) I have to first preface it by saying that this all is REALLY out of my comfort zone. So, in the name of professional and personal growth, I thought I'd give you a little glimpse into the neurotic Me. So, those of you who were hooked in by the title of this post and thought it was going to be something else... sorry. But while you are here, read on and don't forget to comment. :)

Will The Real Me Please Stand Up?
For the most part, I'm pretty transparent. As a matter of fact, I tend to reveal more about myself than I probably should. Keeping my mouth shut has never been one of my strongest assets. But what most people don't seem to get until they REALLY know me is that I can be terribly insecure. And yet, I've been told that I appear to be SO confident. Funny how that works. Those of you who know me in real life, know how insecure I really am, er... used to be. I've worked hard to gain confidence and I think, and many people around me believe, that I've come a long way. But, that sneaky little bugger creeps back into my psyche every now and then.

I'm Gonna Be Sick!
Even 5 years ago, just thinking about speaking publicly would cause me to run for the Pepto Bismol! So, one of my personal goals over the last few years has been to get over it! I've engaged some speaking strategies and presentation preparations strategies that I think have really worked for me (subject for another post, perhaps). At this point, I would not say I'm completely cured of the nerves, but I am much more comfortable and now I even seek out these speaking opportunities myself. As a matter of fact, I was just accepted to give a presentation at the Innovative Learning Conference in October.

Shameless Self Promotion
So, when I try to promote myself on Twitter that I'm appearing on our Palm Breeze CAFE and ask my peeps to join me and watch, and when I post these videos here for you to watch, what I'm really doing is pushing myself one step further in my goals to put myself out there. I am waiting to see that the world is not going to end because I'm not totally relaxed in this video and because my hair needs brushing or because I wanted to talk and had much to say BUT for some reason I didn't say a word. I also see that I need to stop bobbing my head up and down, up and down! What is that anyway? Ok, enough....I'll obsess more about this later.

Can you say V U L N E R A B L E ?

It occurred to me today that in my professional life, every 3 years, I've either changed schools, grade levels or moved to an administrative position. Now it's been 3 years and I've found myself focusing on putting myself "out there" with blogging, attending and being much more visible at conferences, being a part of focus groups, state and national organizations and presenting. You know those dreams where you are presenting in front of a huge audience and you're naked? Well, the frequency of those dreams has increased for me quite a bit.

Enough About Me... What About You?

What do you do to push yourself out of your comfort zone? Or perhaps you don't, and you are happy staying there. What are your thoughts on this?

Ok, Back To Me...
Thanks for being a part of my personal growth! :) ~Lee

Airset Part 1

Airset Part 2


Anonymous said...

Well Done! It is difficult to put yourself out there, isn't it? I suspect there's a few bloggers who would rather write about their wonderful ideas than speak about them in front of a major audience. I believe we have a responsibility to share our experience and knowledge with others and therefore we have to learn to expose more of ourselves. I don't think there's an easy way to do this, though.

Sarah Stewart said...

Hi Lee,thanks for putting yourself out there again. I think that is why I like blogging-I can be a lot more confident, assertive and articulate online than I am in the 'real' world. I believe we need to remember that most people feel the same as we do and in fact, see you as a role model. Thanks for that

Anonymous said...

I appreciate watching your video and reading your blog. You're right, putting yourself out there is hard, but it's very beneficial to the masses as well. I consider myself very new to the whole Twitter, blogging, and podcasting "scene", and what I find most difficult is organizing what I want to put out there, what's relevant and meaningful to others, and how much I can devote to putting into it all. (I gotta put my podcast back together - it was fun [and alot of work] to produce!) Keep up the good work!

Anonymous said...

Lee, you did a great job, but the title of that entry really got me going. I think I over clicked the mouse. It doesn't look good.

You did a great job, especially after you realized it's just fun! We'll watch the hits rise as everyone takes a look at you. You really are the expert on AirSet in my eyes. That program has sooooo much in it.

You're great. It's just great to have you as a friend and geek.

Lee Kolbert said...

I'm hoping with experience it will get easier.

Blogging does make it easier. I can hide behind my keyboard. All the more reason I'm pushing myself to post things that "expose" my imperfections (have you seen my Flickr pics...OMG)

I had to dig deep to find you on Twitter. I'm following you now, so you can run, but you can't hide!

You've always been my personal cheerleader, telling me I can do things before I knew I could. You know I love ya!

Sylvia Paull said...


I think you were absolutely great and network ready.

Where did you hear about Airset?

Sylvia Paull

Anonymous said...


So, you're sure you don't want to do the "Woman on the 'Cutting' Edge" segment at Palm Breeze Cafe? Come on, kick those comfort zone questions to the curb! You're awesome!

Shelley said...

Lee, I'm a secondary college counselor, here via Twitter, and I just wanted to add my somewhat belated congratulations... I thought the AirSet segment on PBC was great, and you don't LOOK nervous at all!

I would love to invite you (and your readers) to chime in on the subject of managing one's personal online identity as an educator... as is often the case, I'm finding that the wisdom is in the comments! (If you have a sec, click on over to Relax. No, really. to add your $.02. And thank you again for expanding your comfort zone on our behalf!

Lee Kolbert said...

@Shelley - Thanks for visiting my blog. I would love to jump over to yours and add my thoughts, however, your link doesn't seem to work for me. If you wouldn't mind, send me an email with the link. You can send it to teachakidd@gmail.com

Lee Kolbert said...

@whoissylvia - I'm not sure where I heard about Airset. I would venture to guess that I probably got it from a cool site called www.go2web20.net
a very cool site. You should check it out. ~Lee